The transfer was ok yesterday, I suppose, but I feel a bit ‘nothingy’ about it. I was really happy to see that of the three embryos they thawed, three survived and two of those were a high grade. However, I had a very very bad rest period afterwards. Who knows how that can affect the procedure? After a day at work, I am at home relaxing, which is what I should be doing.
I feel a bit like this transfer was doomed right from the start (feel that optimism shining through!). I think it could be a defense mechanism (i.e. my brain doesn’t want me to get excited and let down again, so it is playing pessimist), and I think part of the story will make you all laugh (maybe in horror, or maybe like I am David Brent /Michael Scott from the (UK /US) office – cringe laughs) Here are the reasons why;
1) after insertion, there was still one embryo left at the tip of the catheta, so they had to repeat the procedure.
2) (this is the one) when I was sent to do my lying down for two hours, I almost immediately needed a (TMI warning, but we are all friends here, right?) poo. Unfortunately my A had to work so I was alone. It is not a hospital and I just could not face telling them I needed to poo into their bedpan. I just couldn’t! But I paid sorely for my embarrassment. I can’t express to you the misery, angst and discomfort one and a half hours of this creates! I was, as you probably imagine, in a clinical setting, lying in a bed with no underwear on. I really thought i might have an accident and really could not rest or relax the whole time. . and come 9pm, an hour and half after my transfer I had to get up. I pressed the nurse button on the wall by my head before I got up, but it obviously wasn’t working. Then I was faced with running through a waiting room brimming with well-to-do Thais to the toilet and doing what I had to do. Really, one of the worst experiences of late!
Anyway, I hope I always entertain and amaze… I include a picture of my sweet little embryos, whom I hope survived all the sweating, cramping and wriggling of that introduction to their new home. What a welcome to my body, Jeez!